Its Kind of Like....

.........Walking into a second story house, the upper level does not have walls, instead it has crystal clear windows, no roof just crystal clear windows....the house sits on top of a very high mountain, which makes you feel like you live in between the clouds. The upper level room is empty, no chairs no furniture, nothing but open space to mediate and full your soul with clarity....this room makes you feel complete with the universe, it makes you feel like you are in heaven..and when the sunsets you believe that you have everything you need and the day can end, your life can end, and you would be completely satisfied....the stars come out and you have never experienced them this close to you...you feel as though someone has given you a cloud on which to ride on...and you are in complete bliss...to you there is no world outside of this room...and the windows do not make you feel like your boxed in but like your free to come and go as you please......your body....your heart...your soul...and your mind....all is fulfilled all is satisfied....

but....

......The house isn't complete....the floor of the upper level has not been finished....and any step taken on that uneasy, unfinished floor, could break the floor and send you crashing down....the risk is a fall that would kill you....a fall from which you certainly would not be able to recover from...you think to yourself should I continue to expose myself like this for this feeling of bliss..for this feeling of satisfaction , complete utter happiness and soul thirst quenching feeling? Your mind begins to no longer enjoy the bliss of this room because it now thinks of the dangers involved, of the consequences that could arise...the room no longer has that mind clarity bliss and you can hear the house builders whispering in your ear "The floor is not secure, it will break and you will fall, you will fall and experience an immense amount of pain...if the fall does not kill you instantly....little by little your heart begins to understand the risks involved too....and its kind of like that...

Yet....

The thing many people don't understand is that you don't give up on this room...you don't give up the bliss...you work to build a stronger floor...you work towards making it so strong a group of 30 elephants could live on the floor....you work towards that...you don't walk away...and you don't let your heart give up on such a feeling of fulfillment and satisfaction....you dont silence your soul....

***On the very random I have epiphanies during my daily run...yesterday the above thought came to my mind along with another...the other thought was the following:

"You can't expect to trust someone, if you don't trust yourself first"

I know this thought may not be new ...it might be old as dirt....but for me it was like opening a window in a dark room...

enjoy the randomness along with some tunes...

Miles Davis- Flamenco Sketches

Side Note: I wonder why Mr.Davis named this piece Flamenco Sketches...possible new blog post topic?...I think so....until then what do you think?